Although I have
been a Christian for many years, I never underwent any discipleship,
and this affected my spiritual journey with the Lord.
I grew up in a non-christian home where
my mother struggled with much emotional pain from the rejection, family
and relational problems through her marriage and family.
With very little nurturing, love and affirmations from my
parents, I overcame the sibling rivalry and their rejection by hiding
myself in the world of reading or by day dreaming. Growing up
his way, I did not develop much relational skills, and often used
escapism to overcome fearful or painful situations: either removing
myself from any hurting relationship or suppressing my emotions numbing
my feelings or blanking out mentally.