This is the
story about of one of the lies from the devil that God has revealed to
me that I have believed.
For many years, I had a reoccurring nightmare. The scenes
changed, but the theme was the same. In my dreams, I would be
church or an large auditorium and I would be the speaker. I
be excited that there was a good size group of people and excited about
sharing the truth of the gospel. However, when I began to
most everyone would either ignore what I was preaching or get up and
leave. I would awake from the dream thinking, "What is so
with me that no one wants to hear me speak?" The enemy attacks us at the point of our identity. About four years
ago, after much prayer, I came to the realization that the nightmares
were lies from the devil telling me that I couldn't speak. I
a commitment to the Lord that I would speak as God gave me opportunity
whether anyone listened to me or not. I would speak and leave
results in God's hands. The next time that I had that bad
and awoke, I told the devil that he is a liar and that I was going to
be obedient to God to speak and leave the results in God's hands.
Reader, I haven't had those nightmares since that time!
Quite often the enemy looks for an open
to enter. He will use any door that he can get
into. He will even use well meaning people who are really close to our
lives, people like our parents and peers. So where did this
lie come into my life? I began this year, 2011, to ask God
about the door and God
revealed the door that was opened.
The enemy who is a liar and often
establishes a lie in our lives when we are just
children. As I prayed, I remembered having difficulty as a
small child saying several words. In stead of saying "jello" I
"yello". In stead of saying "mother", I would say "moher"
out the "t" sound. The way that my mother, Aunt, and
grandmother dealt with that was to
tease me about it. I tried hard, but just couldn't seem to
correct. What lie did I hear from the the devil through this
experience? "You can't
" This was the door.
Furthermore, the enemy often uses other
events to reinforce the lie that has been established. Around
the first or second
grade of school, I was in a school play that the school put on for the
local community. My part was rather small, just a few word, but when I was go
the stage, I became very fearful and began to cry. The
in desperation went to get principal. He came and threatened me with a
I didn't go out on the stage. In great fear, I managed to do
part. This experience probably introduced a deeper fear of speaking.
I don't remember just when, but as a child, I began to stutter quite a
bit. Of course, my parents were concern about my speaking, so
they had me to take a speech classes in junior high and high school.
remember having some major problems in the classes. It was a
experience. This reinforced the lie, "I can't speak."
In college, I again was encouraged by my parents to take a speech class
and did so. On one occasion, I was to do a ten minute speech.
I got up to speak before about thirty students, but went
blank about half way through my speech. The professor had me
stand there for some time until I could remember enough to finish my
speech. So now, "I have become a failure in speaking before a
group of people."
Later, while in college, God called me into pastoral ministry.
While I was in seminary, I had to preach before about thirty-five other
ministerial students. The students as well as the professor
to critique whoever spoke. I had listened closely to what
happened to other students so that I wouldn't make the same errors.
I thought I did fairly well, however, of course, I still got
criticized. What is the
expression? "You can't win for losing." Have you
ever believed that lie? I have. That was another
lie that had actually entered into my life during high school when a
coach told me that when I lost a boxing match in Physical Education.
As a minister, I forced myself to speak even though I was afraid to
speak. My fear of speaking may have been one of the factors
became sick and had to resign my first pastorate. I had heard
expression that it was "normal" to be
fearful when speaking before a group. So again, I came to
lie also. Again, I shook hands with the enemy in agreement. Not
years ago, the topic of public speaking came up in a men's Bible study.
I made the statement that it was "normal" to be afraid to
before people. Much to my surprise, my pastor said, it was
normal for him to be afraid to speak. Guess what? I
come to believe the lie that it was normal for everyone, including me, to
be fearful in speaking. That gave validity to my fear of speaking.
used to do a home Bible studies alternating teaching with a friend.
He began going through a divorce and began to push away from
friendship. Some years passed and he remarried. I tried to
reconnected back with him. One day we met and had lunch
I was anxious to hear what God was doing in his life and to
share with him what God
was speaking to me. I shared with him that I felt that God
wanting me to speak more. When I shared this with him, he put
his prophetic cap and said, "God told him to tell me that I was not to
speak, but only to write." I politely told him that I thought
that he had missed God on this one. He responded that God had
told him that I didn't receive what he told me, that he was to break
fellowship with me. I could hardly believe what he said and
this day, he doesn't fellowship with me.
About eight years ago, I was praying about doing some brief counseling
on the local Christian radio station. I prayed and believed
God said that I was
to do the radio spots; however, I decided to bounce the idea off my
response was, "No one wants to hear you on the radio." She wasn't
trying to be mean to me, but realized that I was not a real eloquent
speaker. I pressed
through and having been doing the spots now for about seven plus years.
wife also, has changed her mind. God is not looking for the
perfect person, but one who is available. His grace makes up for
I would not say that I am a real eloquent speaker today, but that
doesn't matter. Moses also declared that he had literally a
"thick tongue". "And
said unto the LORD, O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither heretofore,
nor since thou hast spoken unto thy servant: but I am slow of speech,
and of a slow tongue
" (Exodus 4:10).
Now look at God's response. "And
the LORD said unto him, Who hath made man's mouth? or who maketh the
dumb, or deaf, or the seeing, or the blind? have not I the
Now therefore go, and I will be with thy mouth, and teach thee what
thou shalt say
" (Exodus 4:11-12). Paul put it
this way, "But
God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise;
and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things
which are mighty
" (I Corinthians 1:27).
We are not only to recognize the lies that the enemy brings into our
lives, but we are also to RENOUNCE them and REPLACE them with the truth
God's Word. In counseling, I often pitch out the question,
does God say about that in His Word." The Bible doesn't say,
"Basil can't speak!" It says that I can do anything that God
tells me to do. "I
can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me
If you are wrestling with a fear of
speaking, consider what Jesus said. "But
the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my
name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your
remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you
(John 14:26). "And when they bring you unto
the synagogues, and unto magistrates, and powers, take ye no thought
how or what thing ye shall answer, or what ye shall say: For
Ghost shall teach you in the same hour what ye ought to say